Today I am 34 years old. I honestly still feel like I always have...only better. People always complain about getting older, but I see it differently. I feel so lucky for each year I get here. Life seriously gets better the older I get. One of my close friends J ( who is in her early 70's) tells me the same thing.
The older I get, the closer I get to the me I really am. I am more and more comfortable shedding all those layers I worked so hard to cover myself with during my teens and 20's. What a waste of time it is to cover up who you really are. The clothes you wear, the car you drive...they are not you, they are just things you have...who cares.
I am less afraid. I spent so many years with a "maybe someday" attitude...all because of fear of failure. Now I know that the only time you fail is when you fail to try. Now, if I want to run a 1/2 marathon, I do it. If I want to open a photography business, I do it...no matter how scary and intimidating it may be. If I want to sing out loud in HEB while cruisin' the produce aisle, I just do it. I just have to do the things I am afraid of.
I know how to let go...fear, guilt, "friends" who are not good for you..I know how to let those things go. Of course I still have fear and guilt, but I know how to let it go now. I'm happier and I sleep better at night because I do not worry as much. I have learned that for the most part, things work out the way they are supposed to. Usually, the things I am worried about are things I have little control over, so I HAVE to let it go. As for "friends" who are not good for you...you all know what I am talking about. The friends who are competitive or jealous; I let them go..come on y'all...the universe is big enough for EVERYONE to achieve their greatness, don't be jealous when good things happen to your friends, support your girls. The friends who have mean comments to say, I just don't have the time or energy for people who ask me if I used pesticides to cause my son's cancer, or "Do you really think you can handle having 3 kids AND a business???"...All I have to say is "Buh-Bye...come back and play when you can be nice.
Anyway, I have learned so much more than I though I would by the age of 34. I still have a long way to go. Right now, I really have all that I can ask for. A wonderful and healthy family, supportive friends, the start of a new adventure..wow! Speaking of wonderful family, here is a picture of my birthday gift from my husband:
Yes, you are looking at BBQ ribs! Not just any BBQ ribs, but BBQ ribs from the 2 best rib places in the whole USA. Both are located in Memphis. You have to understand how much I LOVE BBQ ribs. I love them more than sushi...more than hot wings ( and I love those a lot)! My husband walks in yesterday with 2 big boxes of ribs from Memphis for my birthday. How cool is that? One rack of ribs is from Rendezvous and one rack of ribs is from Corky's seriously the best in the world.
They are waiting for me in the fridge and I am seriously tempted to have them for breakfast..but I will wait...hopefully by the age of 35, I will be able to add Patience to the list of things I have learned.